OK! Today I'm letting you know a bit more about what's goin' on with my life!:) I haven't been around much lately. Yes, it's sad but true. I can't do several things at the same time, and when I'm pressured, my writing sucks, it's a fact. Actually I'm having lots of things to deal with at the moment, not only at work or college, but some relationships of mine are being threatened by death. Few people I know, those I can consider friends and those who play a great role in my life are pretty sick or simlpy drifting away. Many matters of the heart to take care of, so you see, I guess my literay productian was a bit cast aside, unfortunately. But I'm still alive and kicking, rhyming something here, composing something there...In a supernaturally slow pace, I must add. Not having much fun lately, obviously. Movies, mangas, music and designing were put in second place. Above all I miss playing my acoustic guitar sometimes, and I know that if I don't
Now I quietly left my stone cave I think I feel a bit less heartsick I do not scare myself anymore I have grown out of my hardships I look at the sun instead of the moon I won over defeat with a hard kick I smile even when my lips quiver I learnt to endure and slowly resist I chose writing instead of weeping I challenged depression warships I move on with my brand new cloak I now wear heavy layers of lordship My hands are made of unbreakable steel Though surrounded by trembling thunders I often manage to stay firm on my heels Tomorrow I might even be six feet under I am constantly preparing my last meal My mind no longer frets or slumber At any second, I might face life’s ordeals Each joy and adventure I shall plunder I now control both struggle and repeal Lately I am eager to satisfy a hunger That once made me suffer and squeal Yesterday I was prey, now I am hunter Behold the one and only taking the wheel My fists can make
Foreverafter Dammed be eternity Which cursed and sentenced my eyes to witness the lives of those whom I love, be reduced to dust I watch them born, I behold them die I wait as they grow up and also grow old I see their flaws, see they work them out I observe their passions, laugh when they fall hard I appreciate their growing light, their cheerful enthusiasm Their foolish dreams, their uncertain paths Their worthless greed and senseless wars Their pitiful regret and countless faults I respect their obsessions, their hunger for possessions Their fear of damnation and unstoppable seek for salvation I understand their pain, I mourn for their losses I listen to their whims, rejoice with their noises I grieve for their bad deeds, when they burn alive the seas Then they amaze me again, with their charm and impeccable smile But then later I inevitably cry for a while, when they infallibly start to run out of time. By The Heartless a.k.a Vanesxa
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